What’s your why? | How I’m making the most of my 2018

After a rough start to 2018, I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection and thinking.

Why am I pushing myself so hard in my workouts? Why am I busting my behind trying to juggle motherhood, blogging, and workouts? What the heck am I hoping to get out of all of this?

To find the answer and settle my mind, I returned to the place where I feel the most at peace and found the answers I needed.

What is your why

The mountains are calling and I must go ~ John Muir

This may be cheesy and cliche, but being in nature centers me. Whenever the grind of everyday life starts to wear me down, retreating to the woods or the mountains or the open space behind our neighborhood is where I collect my thoughts and find peace of mind.


For 10 days in the mountains of Colorado, I played. I took my toddler skiing and sledding. We made snow angels and snowmen. I went snowboarding with my father and my husband. We had some gorgeous days on the slopes. I went to see ice castles with my girls and out to lunch with my mom.

But I also turned over the questions that kept me up in the middle of the night. And the answers suddenly became crystal clear.

I workout so that I can be in nature. I want to hike, snowshoe, climb, kayak, raft, swim, snowboard, ski, camp, and play in the backcountry. More importantly, I want to do all of those activities with my kids.

Nature is serene, but it is also unforgiving.

As a society, we have evolved beyond “survival of the fittest.” We don’t have to hunt and gather for food. We don’t have to walk three miles to find water.

Technology advancements have assured that all of us can live in some level of comfort — with heating and air conditioning, indoor plumbing, access to television and the internet for entertainment, and public and private transportation. Heck, most of us live better than kings did a couple of centuries ago.

As a result, we no longer have the pressure of surviving to inspire us to stay fit.

So why do it?

For me, the answer is I still want to be in nature. And I know that even with all of the technology, synthetic clothing, and preparation for all types of weather and dangerous scenarios, nature is still a fickle beast. And I’d better be physically ready to get myself out of a bad situation.

So if that’s my “why,” what are my next steps?

What is your why?

Adventure awaits

Growing up, my parents made sure they got us outdoors and that we were prepared for whatever activity we were tackling. Ski school when we went on ski vacations. Swim lessons and water safety before rafting. Bear bells on hikes. You know, normal.

With that preparation mentality drilled into me, I feel like I need to take a step back with my blog and prepare.

I’m not quitting my blog. I’ll still be posting consistently and prioritizing my writing.

But I need to bolster my knowledge so that I can be the most effective writer and, eventually, trainer.

I plan on tackling the NASM certification first. And in May, I’ll be participating in Mark Rippetoe’s Starting Strength seminar in Denver, led by the big man himself.

In June, I’ll be heading to the IDEA World Fitness BlogFest in San Diego.

Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

As exciting as these new ventures are, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have my hesitations. I want to fully commit and jump in and devote all of my attention to this. But I have two little girls that need me.

I want so badly to model the empowered, strong mom to them. But that means taking time and attention away from them so that I can develop and enrich myself.

I know they won’t remember this time, but I worry that somehow they’ll internalize that their mom wasn’t 100 percent there.

I’ll never get this time back with them; but my instinct tells me this is the best investment I can make for us.

16 Replies to “What’s your why? | How I’m making the most of my 2018”

  1. I think that sometimes getting away for the hustle and bustle of everyday life and getting out in nature can be so good for the soul. It sounds like it was a great experience for you!

  2. If your gut is calling you to do the training, then you owe it to yourself to follow it. As you said, it will not only enrich your knowledge, but it will make you better equipped to enrich other lives as well, including your daughters ๐Ÿ˜‰

  3. Sounds like you’ve come to some important realizations, now you just need to quash the Mom-guilt. ๐Ÿ™‚ Your kids will benefit from a happy, well-grounded mother. Plus, they also benefit from other caregivers – whether it’s their Dad, grandparents, or babysitters. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. I totally get it! and I’m REALLY excited for you to move forward with what creates a fire in your soul! If you do what you feel you are meant to do, your kids will see THAT, not that you weren’t there 100% for them. We are no good to our kids if we don’t have a passion we can share with them.

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